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ughh hes so annoying. i dont get it, he cant talk to me now!? the midget probably wont allow him. well fuck her. have ur lame ass boyfriend. hes a fucking coward anyways. he can only do 3 shots!? r u serious. and he couldnt even break up with me straight to my face and he couldnt even look me in the eye. u come to do something.. then DO ITT. i deleted him off of my list. he wont even talk to me, im not gunna waste my time anymore. i've already cried enough this morning and for the past 3 days. i want a guy that can actually say something he wants to say to my face and not just lie to me to make me feel better. cause i eventually find out anyways. im not stupid like some pple think
anywho.. im still sick. and i wish i was better already. i've been sick for the past 3 days.. jeezuss get better already. probably cause i havent been getting much sleep. idk.. i just hope im better by tomorrow at least so i can start hanging with pple before summer ends. im gunna go take a shower..
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i havent updated this thingg in ages. last time i did.. was in june i think.. and i was with todd and actually happy. but yeahh... now im single, once again:/ ohh well. man.. maybe i just suck at relationships or the guys i get in relationships with suck. i like the 2nd one better. idk anymore really.. its like i was so sure of me and james.. SO SURE. he made me believe it all.. that him and his ex would never get back together. guess whatt... that was a fucking lie!! i knew it would be bad news when they hung out=[ when he came to break up with me he like couldnt even say it. wtf? when u come to tell me something.. just straight up say it? dont make me pull it out of u. he was so great though... he like did everything right and never pissed me off and.. idk he just knew what to do to make me always feel happy. :'( w/e.. i know theres better out there. im movingg on.. i got someone in mindd anywayss. if we ever hangg out. this wk is gunna be soo busy for me though=/ last wk of summer. WHICH SUCKS. i want one more month. so much for doing my summer project which i havent even started on.. haha. oh well i usually wait till the last wk of summer to do it ne ways. ill get it done... hopefully. i guess im gunna go to bed.. its late/early. g'night
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im excited about going to indiana tomorrow and seeing all my family. since i havent seen em all in like 2 yrs. ill have to get up at 430 though which is going to suckk. but at least ill be doing something and wont be bored. im going to miss todd though. im usually with him on wkends. oh well.. he would be working anyways. hes not going to orlando i guess, he told me that last night. he doesnt really have the money to go and all. were going to hang out with ashley and joe and meranda and alex i think and do something... we havent figured out what though. i probably wont be able to sleep tonight i havent been able to fall asleep till 2.. and yeah i have to wake up at 430 so i wont be getting any sleep tonight i guess. oh well, who needs sleep... i like todd... i like him A LOT. ok im done here i think im gonna get off cause i hear my cell ringing. cyaa<33
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[24 May 2007|04:17pm] |
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i dont really like my lj layout. but i'm too lazy to change it and it usually takes me yrs to find one i like. cause all the layouts on lj SUCK. i'm sooo glad its finally summer and i'm a senior. just one more yr of school and i can start school at MCC. ill probably take some time off though when i graduate... but i'm not sure, we'll see. i wish i could hang out with todd tonight.. but he gets off at 8 and then has to get up at 630 tomorrow, which really sucks for him. i'll get to sleep in and not get up at 5! i can finally get sleep:] we're hanging out tomorrow though.. when he gets off i think he gets off at 4 unless his boss keeps him till 7 like last wk=[ lets hope not. i really like him.. i'm trying to let myself like him too much.. but its not working out so well. he says he'll never cheat on me and he says he really likes me so at least were on the same page. but i always have doubts cause all the other guys i've been with have ended up hurting me.. but maybe todd is different. idk we'll see i guess. i had my algebra exam today.. and i failed that thing like it was my JOB. cause my teacher sucks at teaching.. no one in that class understood what she was talking about. oh well the yr is over with who caress. im thinking about cutting my hair.. but not TOO SHORT. i've done it before and have done a good job. so yeah... and it grows back pretty fast. so if i mess up.. oh well. i have enough hair to spare..
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[07 May 2007|07:53pm] |
i havent wrote on here in ages! i kinda forgot about livejournal. its not like anyone reads it though.. i think like one person might though. but oh well ill just write in here to talk when i feel like it. i wish school was over with already, im getting tired of waking up at 5 and going to all my lame classes. iw ant summer to be here.
todd asked me out saturday.. cinco de mayo. my wkend was so insane. i was messed up the whole wkend i think. not that its anything to brag about really.. i spent the whole wkend with todd though. and i had an amazing time. and i just really really like him. i hope i dont end up getting hurt. but... if i do.. its life. everytime i talk to him i get butterflies or even if i think about him. i've never felt this way about a guy. i know i might of said that before maybe... but im dead serious this time. its not like i love him or anything. but i just... can't stop thinking about him. its driving me crazy. i cant wait till this wkend when we hang out=]
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[30 Mar 2007|09:25pm] |
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today was fun i guess. i went to bush gardens with stephanie, jasmine and whitney. and i saw a lot of pple from school there that i know! i didnt think that would happen. the only bad part was staying at jasmine's house last night and i didnt get sleep. cause me being the lucky one got to sleep on the hard floor. JUST GREAT. it was quite lame. i rode sheikra today for the first time!! and then i ended up riding it 3 more times cause it was THAT great. i was pretty scared at first. but yeah i knew i would love it so i went for it. i had a good time for the most part i guess. except for when i got a headache and felt sick. i had to split a hot dog and fries with stephanie cause we didnt have much money. so i didnt eat hardly anything today. i was mad about sharing my food, but i had to. but im finally home and i get to sleep in my bed. cause i havent for 5 nights. ill get sleep finally!!! =]
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[30 Mar 2007|09:15pm] |
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i'm reallyreally starting to like him even more. but im afraid if i do that things willl go wrong and ill get hurt. cause yeah thats happened a lot the last times. well all of the last times. maybe i think too much about it.. and then i start to worry. ahha.. i do that a lot. but yeah i really like him, so yeah its all good=D
i wish i wasnt so scared. like idk its weird.. i feel scared all the time. and not safe. i dont know how to explain it. i just always feel like something bad is going to happen. but oh well. its just me. and my parents have been fighting a lot lately and it really makes me angry. and i dont even want to be here that much anymore. ohhh welll. im done here.
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[10 Feb 2007|09:47pm] |
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i've been tired like all day and it sucks. and i've been drinking pepsi like crazy to stay awake. but ya it hasnt really helped at all. i want this wk to be over with so i can go to the beach already i cant wait. ill be out there for 4 nights. stephanie is gonna come with me for one night i think or two. im not sure really. and were suppose to meet up with these other guys there. but idk if thats gonna happen.
today really sucked i didnt do anything pretty much except take a shower and sleep and eat and i was online a lottt today cause my brother wasnt here all day thank god. he'll be coming home soon=/ i kinda wish he'd move out alreadyy. i wanan get a job for money. but then again i dont. cause ya im lazy and id probably get fired. ya i have nothing else to say for now.
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One cupcake plz [4:28 P.M.]: i wish i was rich. and that i could like rent a beach house on the beach for the wkend of my bday and have friends out there and everything
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:28 P.M.]: me too!!
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:28 P.M.]: i wish i had a bmw
One cupcake plz [4:28 P.M.]: that would be great
One cupcake plz [4:28 P.M.]: ya
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:28 P.M.]: and a really really big nice house with stairs
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:28 P.M.]: lol
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:28 P.M.]: and a maid to clean my room
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:28 P.M.]: lol
One cupcake plz [4:28 P.M.]: lol yes
One cupcake plz [4:28 P.M.]: that would be the life
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:29 P.M.]: ohhh yeahhh
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:29 P.M.]: and with hot boyfriends lol
One cupcake plz [4:29 P.M.]: haha ya
One cupcake plz [4:29 P.M.]: not just one
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:29 P.M.]: < jerk
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:29 P.M.]: hahahah
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:29 P.M.]: yeah
One cupcake plz [4:29 P.M.]: like 5
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:29 P.M.]: we'll be the players this time
One cupcake plz [4:29 P.M.]: 4 great boyfriends. lol
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:29 P.M.]: lol
One cupcake plz [4:29 P.M.]: yes we will
One cupcake plz [4:29 P.M.]: 5*
rAinbowbriteLis4 [4:29 P.M.]: make up your mind haha
One cupcake plz [4:30 P.M.]: haha
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i dont wanna go to school tomorrow at all. i hope ill feel better tomorrow than i did today. i didnt really do anything at all today there was nothing to do anyways. i was suppose to clean up my room. but ya.. that didnt happen. i wasnt in the mood to do anything today. i watched the 1st spiderman=] i havent finished it yet though. i cant wait till the 3rd one comes outt. it'll be great. idk why but im in a really bad mood, everything is pretty much annoying me.
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i hate this one girl she is so fat. and my ex is going out with her. idk why he is. shes fat and she thinks shes soo cool. she should be shot. i hate being sick it REALLY sucks. but on the plus side ill get to miss some school.. maybe. i cant wait till next wk cause my aunt is gonna get a house on the beach for like a whole wk. and ill prolly be missing some school then. ill be right on the beach. and it will be great. and i cant wait. my dad is gonna bring me home mcdonalds and im so happy. i love mcondalds. im bored and im done writing in here.
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today im going to my friends partyy, i cant wait. it should be fun, theres gonna be lots of pple there, so she said. and im gonna be spending the night. so i wont be completely bored all wkend. im glad this coming up wk is only a 2 day wk. and we prolly wont be doing much work in class. so thats good. i cant wait till christmas. cause im getting my ipod, im gonna have a green case.. cover thing for it too. im like the last person on earth to get an ipod... it seems everyone has one. oh well, as long as im getting one. i really hate will, i kno i complain about him in every entry. but idc. hes a jerk. i hope.. she breaks up with him.. AGAIN. she already did once... idk why he even went back out with her. shes a bitch... i can be too sometimes... but not like her. >=[ im gonna go get ready.
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yep... im bored. i cant wait till this wk is over with... it hasnt been a great one really thanx to a CERTAIN SOMEONE =[ i dont wanna go tomorrow. too bad i cant just skip. but i already did that this wk. im glad we only have like a 2 day wk next wk.... i think. i cant wait till christmas. im getting sick of this weather. i want cold weather to be hereeee. i stole this survey thingg from zax.
Name 9 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 9 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.. No cheating!!!
1. stephanie
2. karina
3. lisa
4. craig
5. travis
6. lonna
7. ethan
8. jackie
9. zax
How did you meet 3?
9th grade english class.. i think.
What would you do if you had never met 1?
that would be impossible. shes my bestfriend4ever
What would you do if 6 and 2 went out?
uhh id freak out. cause then.. theyd be lesbians. and i woudlnt allow that.
What do you think about number 7?
hes a mormon.
What would you do if 5 confessed they loved you?
id have to run away. cause thats my brother. that wouLD BE SICK
A fact about 9?
he loves video games
Would you ever live with 8?
living with jackie... oh man thatd be crazy! i would live with her. idk how long itd last though.
What do you like best bout 3?
good friend. shes really funny. and we have funny conversations sometimes.
Is 2 your best friend?
one of em
Do you miss number 6?
uh i guess? lol i dont talk to her as much as i used to
What's 4's best feature?
his ability to cheer me up when im sad.
Have you met 5's family?
well duh hes my bro
What do you think of when you think of 7?
mormons
Where does 9 live?
ChaplainZax [9:26 P.M.]: bradenton
ChaplainZax [9:26 P.M.]: on 64
Does 8 have brothers & sisters?
nah shes an only child
What's your most fond memory of 6?
winter formal dance... lol. great time
What was your first impression of 4?
he seems cool.
Have you ever seen 5 naked?
thats sick. no
What's the craziest thing you've done with 1?
wow. a lot of things. i cant even name one. theres so many
Who does 3 love?
rohan! lol
How long have you known 9?
for two years since 9th [what he said about me]
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[14 Nov 2006|08:10pm] |
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i hate immature boys
i hate not having pepsi
i hate mosquitos
i hate that my digital camera is messed up and i cant take pictures now really...
i hate how my dad bugs me when im in a bad mood
i hate how pple say "i kno what ur going through"
uhhh i dont think so, retards.
i hate how some pple never talk to me at school
and then they act like their my bestfriend
i hate being used
i hate lies
i hate when pple stare
k im done. i havent updated in a while. cause.. i dont really have anything to update about. except that will is a jerk. he should be shot. him and his whore-ish g/f. i hope niether of them never read this... haha... oh well if they do. idc. i wish he could of just told me he still really liked his ex before i really started liking him. i wish he woudl of never said all those things he said to me. cause hE NEVER MEANT ANY OF IT. ugh. i didnt go to school today, thank god i didnt wanna have to see will. cause i see him a lot on odd days. my report card suxed... i havent even shown my mom yet. my grades r going downnnn. idk whats wrong with me. i gotta bring back up. im so frustrated. k thats all.
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[01 Nov 2006|05:39pm] |
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i didnt really do ne thing for halloween. i just sat home and ate a lot of candy that my mom bought. =]] and then i talked to will for the whole night pretty much =D how was everyone elses halloween? today i was so tiredd i could hardly stay awake in my classes. hopefully ill get more sleep tonight. i dont really kno what to say in here. im bored though. i htink im gonna go drink some pepsi.
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this wkend was pretty greatttt.
yesterday i went to a party with my brother and his friend. and we stayed till like midnight. and last night when i got home i talked on the phone with will for like 4 hours =]]
this friday && saturday im going to disney worldd!! i cant wait. im so excited. the hotel were gonna stay in is wayyy better then the one we stayed in last time. im excited.
i dont really wanna go to school tomorrow =/ but at least i got something to look forward to.
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im suppose to be going to a party today with my bro and his friend. but idk if hes gonna let me... i hope so. i dont wanna be stuck home bored out of my mind. and i cant wait till next friday and saturday.. im GOING TO DISNEY WORLD. im so excited. i love disney world. =]] i havent updated my lj in a whileeee. i kinda forgot about it haha. im drinking pepsi right now with a straw... i like straws. especially the green ones. well im gonna go get ready now i think...
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Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
im soo bored. its like 2 in the morning
and i cant sleep... =[
im so upset. i finally quit crying over that stupid.. jerk
i tell myself that idc about him
but.. um ya i do. ughhhhhhh
idk what to do. i hate this
he doesnt even care
so maybe i shouldnt either...
or at least try not to care.
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i always set myself up
and get my hopes up
just to get hurt...
and it doesnt feel too great either
no it doesnt...
maybe im just being stupid about all this.
maybe i should just forget
and try to act like i dont care
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